This, our seventh visit to the cabin since that pivotal day. Palpable unease present while preparing for the trip. Finding it challenging to be here. Our new reality much more difficult. More so than at home. Possibly due to less distraction. Perhaps the result of just being here. The place they spent their last weekend together on earth. Intensely missing them. Acutely feeling Diesel’s absence this time. Making an effort to focus on patience. Knowing that it will never be the same but hoping it will eventually get easier. One trip at a time.