Friday, September 7, 2012
Opposite Sides of the Same Coin
Eighteen months in and still, most moments in my day are filtered through the lens of losing my son. Thankfully, a little less frequently, and for the most part, with reduced intensity. Two recent experiences in particular come to mind. Both nonevents to an outsider, yet milestones for me. Firstly, the entire twenty-four hours of August 7th passed without registering the significance of that date at all. The first time, since March 7th, when I did not reflect upon a one month marker. Largely due to being out of the country and in a completely different time zone. While observing this the following morning, I was enheartened. Pleasantly surprised. Secondly, later that month, after an evening of exploring Zurich with a Swiss friend, I returned to my hotel room. It was only then when I realized that not once had I thought of the loss during that entire six hour excursion. The longest stretch by far during this year and a half. In both cases, it was recognizing the absence of something that left me feeling encouraged. Seeing what was not there. Experiencing opposite sides of the same coin. This coin most definitely a penny.